|My wife and me.|
HOLY SAD BATMAN. Time to get over it.
Unfortunately it is not that simple. We (Molly and I) are better than yesterday. Are we fixed? NO. Can we be fixed? NO. No longer are we talking about Evelyn's death as a life ending event but we have begun to speak of it as a part of our lives. We have begun to hold back the tears, hide ourselves away from others and fall back into each other. This is not because of a wanting to be exclusive but people who love us, like us, or know what happened want to "FIX" things. This shit you can't fix. You have to learn to live with it not try and fix it. Some days are sad and other are happy, I have no idea how long the days that the sadness consumes us and we have to give into the tears will last but I also don't care. I loved my daughter and it would be a disservice to her memory to give in to the sadness everyday.
-SIDE BAR- ADD ATTACK-
1. Don't compare our loss to yours. Everyone has grief has grief and my grief is never going to be the same as yours. I will not pretend to understand your pain but I have been in a dark place and would love to help you thru yours.
2. For the love of GOD do not tell me "man, you look great for what happened to you"or "I am not sure how you are getting out of bed, I would be a mess if I was you". You all are trying to say we look strong or good but maybe just say that? Saying you would be doing worse than me makes me feel like I am not sad enough.
3. When in doubt just ask. If you want to know how I am feeling ask, don't be surprised when I say I can't talk about it.
But onto the point of this blog.
I went on a climbing trip. I have left my job. I am starting a new business. I am going on another trip.
Over the 1st of the year I headed to Arkansas to go on a climbing trip with the YOUNG STRONG KIDS Noah, Wei, Tyler. It was probably the most fun I have had in a long time and the smile on my face lasted most of the trip.
We climbed some amazing boulders and it was a blast out climbing Noah for once and the YOUNG strong kids did not disappoint.
I had 1 objective and that was to climb 2 boulders on the top 100 boulders in NA King lion, and Daily Planet. We killed off the first one Daily Planet on the first day and a number of other boulders we wanted to try.
Wei and I spent a few days trying King Lion (v11-12) and I was able to put it together after punting off the highest point of the climb and landing on top of Noah then rolling down the hill. I was uninjured but that was by far the scariest fall of my life and I was lucky to walk away.
Wei got stupid close but he also took a fall onto his face which put some voices in his head that I am sure he will silence when (if) he goes back.
|Wei on the King Lion Crux|
|The King Lion boulder|
|The crew of strong kids, I fell from where Wei is about (on the face not the slab)|
The young guns around Minnesota are probably the strongest crop in awhile. All of them can kill v10 in a few tries and I hope they can kill off some projects in Minnesota so I don't have to.
As I said earlier I have left my job and will be starting a new business. I will post more info later but I am very happy and thankful for the oportunity that Sigg gave me and I learned a ton.